9-20-2004

This is the most horrible, totally disgusting thing I have ever done to myself.  I can't believe this is happening.  I can't even think straight right now.  My vagina, right now, is filled with rotting meat and hundreds of squirming, repulsive, disgusting maggots.  I'm now completely fucking insane, I know it.

I've called off of work, and I'm lying naked in my bed right now.  This is where I'm staying until it's all over.  I've already peed in the bed twice, and I've barely slept.  Just a few minutes at a time, I think.  I've also puked on myself once and I can't even count how many times I've cum so far.  Oh yeah, it feels like I'm stuck in this kind of continuous orgasm and I haven't even been touching myself.  It's just the maggots moving inside my cunt.  I can't describe the feeling.  I can't believe this is happening. 

My babies are in me now.  My babies, my sick, repulsive little spawn.  Inside me now.   Just what I wanted so long.  Just what I deserve.

Every now and then one of them starts slitherig up onto my tummy and I have to flick it back down between my legs.

I'll write some more later when I'm making better sense...
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